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What is common?

It’s in the eye of the beholder, isn’t it?

I took a walk on the Old Croton Aqueduct trail as spring just came up, and it got me to thinking.

So many beautiful things. So many of them so ordinary. First, a sign warning me off. My favorite kind of sign, so commonplace.

I see them everyplace, I guess because I like them so much. And I like going past them so much.

I spotted another one recently too. Almost as nice.

I find I like almost any free advice.

Mainly so I can ignore it.

Back to the trail. Tree shadows. Common.

A hollow. I think we make a mistake in distinguishing between death and life. Death shelters life.

Another hollow, this one in an old-old silver maple on a Bronx street.

Okay, anyone would call this tree extraordinary.

On the trail there’s a backyard koi pond I’ve passed a thousand times. Sort of common.

A sycamore, not yet leafed out.

You could just walk by and not notice. Nothing remarkable. Back yard steps, leading…where?

Look down. A pine cone. Brown. Ho-hum.

Gertrude Stein said, It takes a lot of time to be a genius, you have to sit around so much doing nothing, really doing nothing. Looking at not much of anything helps too. Noticing nothing much.

More trail shadows.

Twisted bark. Common.

Ye olde stone wall.

Sprouts. 

Rudimentary flowers. If they have a name, I can’t remember it at the moment.

Daffs.

The most basic flowers. To again quote Gertrude Stein, a writer who knew something about the commonplace, Rose is a rose is a rose is a rose. Or daff is a daff is a daff.

Still, I’m glad I brought my hankie, since the most commonplace flowers make me tear up these days. As ordinary as they are, who knows how many seasons we’ll see them for?

This happens to be an everyday handkerchief inherited from my grandmother. Commonplace! That walk got me thinking. How many of the common things are my favorite things? A homemade hot fudge sundae.

Mister Softee though. Pretty much average. Pretty remarkable for kids though.

A polite dog.

A dog hug.

Any hug, really. Holding hands will do in a pinch.

Pansies. Can you get any more banal?

An afternoon suburban street.

So common. Note the towering beech though. How about a suburban dawn?

Sorta makes you think, to quote Gertude again, There ain’t no answer. There ain’t gonna be any answer. There never has been an answer. That’s the answer. Got that? Street poetry.

Just walk on by. So ordinary.

Banal.

Anyone could see the poetry here. Of course.

Petals. Okay, they happen to be cherry petals.

And everyone knows cherries to be extraordinary.

Look up, though. At the sky. Totally ordinary blue. Once more, Gertrude: I like a view but I like to sit with my back turned to it.

Go ahead, Gertrude. Just try.

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Late season.

Been thinking about the concept recently while visiting some haunts both local and distant. Not ruins exactly. Let’s say slightly faded in the most perfect way.

Like the nearby genteel rose garden at the Lyndhurst.

Its blooms in November just as exquisite as the ones in June.

Possibly even more ravishing. Is it my imagination, or when you stick your nose in are they actually more fragrant as well?

Who’s to say that a rose hip is any less beautiful than the rose that preceded it?

Late season magic. Milkweed.

An old-old graveyard that by all rights ought to have been long plowed under, like the cemetery we stumbled upon behind chain link in the heart of bustling Flushing, Queens. Someone in the Episcopal church next door kindly opened the gate so we could mosey around.

In the midst of faded headstones, some of them dating back to the early 1800s, an epic mulberry thrives.

The tree might have been planted when the graveyard was new.

I like a circa-1700’s fanlight door at Philipse Manor Hall in Yonkers, similarly a survivor.

Between fall and snowfall. I didn’t come up with that one, but it’s a pretty good description of most all the things I like best.

Why do I gravitate to the tousle of brown juniper needles so much more than the vibrant green ones still holding on?

I guess everyone loves the changing hues of autumn. Who would’t care for unexpected fuchsia?

White oak leaves always get me, brown fallen ones perhaps more so, and brown fallen ones with green grass shoots still around them probably most of all.

Classic apples. At a local cider place you can bite into a russet people favored back in the 1600’s.

Nearby, a weathered scarecrow holds court over a late-season field.

Everything old is new again. Somebody or other said that. Could have been the early 1700’s author Jonathan Swift, or Mark Twain, or Churchill or even Stephen King. No one seems to know.

But most things that are old and creaky seem fresher to me than what is new. Perhaps because I feel between fall and snowfall myself?

I gravitate to things that are timeworn and true. Silent movies.

The late-season cattail by a pond.

A portrait of two sisters that suggests a mystical earlier appreciation of hair.

Or the Wenceslas Hollar engraving bespeaking the crucial importance of a fur muff.

A vintage postcard that reminds us we might not have come as far as we think we have.

Wise women from a different era.

Under the canopy of an ancient European beech, a bark bowl that holds mossy dreams.

A 350-million-year-old tree, the most ancient species we know.

The earlier depiction of a human being — really! — the Venus of Hohle Fels, carved 35,000 years ago of mammoth tusk and unearthed in 2008 in a German cave.

A Queens London plane from our time seemingly modeled on her form.

Late-season garden tomatoes and jalapenos possibly more delicious as the summer winds down.

Battered roadside signs.

A statuesque ladytree elm surviving indomitably alongside Central Park.

Every stately specimen I see.

But especially the shagbark hickory.

A historic bur oak with its distinctive shaggy acorn.

Also critters. The homely early herbivore called a lystrosaurus that lived 250 million years ago and survived the Permian extinction event to dominate the early Triassic.

The crystal-clear first Manhattan street map from 1660, called the Castello Plan.

The perfect antique manuscripts I found in the basement of the Concord Public Library, the handwritten copy of Thoreau’s 1851 Walking with its timeless exhortation, How near to good is what is wild!

Dusty, venerable things. Like the perfect cabin we inhabited for a decade.

Or the rough stone wall of our current apartment building. Don’t think anyone has noticed it in a century or so.

Speaking of stone, an expertly carved medieval lion at the Cloisters in New York City.

Not necessarily grubby or dirty, though truth be told I often like those qualities as well.

We recently visited Cortlandt Alley in NYC, dating back centuries.

Now the site of a funny tiny art exhibition space called Mmuseum. Which shares the alley with some vintage window shutters.

Along with awesome contemporary street art.

Of course I value vintage family stuff, like anyone else. Family photos of loved ones.

Or heirlooms like my great aunt’s tatting.

Or the gold cameo ring belonging to my grandfather, bearing the tiger’s eye image of two warriors — one male, one female. A popular ornament in the 1930’s, the ring was said to bring the wearer courage and luck.

I treasure my Ginny dolls from when I was a kid.

There’s also the mysterious Japanese doll already antique when my mother brought back from Japan years ago.

My mother herself gets wiser and zestier with each birthday. At ninety-two-years young, she can identify the musicians who created Layla when song comes on the shuffle.

Old cactus, new nest.

The best.

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Stumperies and critter holes and other mysteries

await at Untermeyer Gardens in Yonkers, New York.

Yes, the famous property — designed in 1916 to be “the finest garden in the world” — now features a Stumpery. The park once boasted sixty greenhouses. It’s still pretty nice.

Just what is a Stumpery? You would be well within your rights to ask the question, since not that many people in the U.S. are familiar with the concept.

The Stumpery is a fad in the U.K., especially among the pinkie-lifting crowd. You’ll find them in gardens at fancy estates, like Biddulph Grange Garden in Staffordshire.

Not so much here.

Perhaps that will change if enough green and other people get behind the idea.

We stroll down along the woodland trail to the Untermeyer Stumpery (say that ten times fast) on a recent fall day. We doddle along talking about lung issues, back issues, heart issues, arthritis, the usual. Nothing works for any of us the way it once did. Life’s not fair! On the other hand, these problems are doled out generally to people with the combination of grit and determination and sometimes wisdom to make the best of a not-so-good thing.

Which brings me to the Stumpery.

But first, the Garden’s other, more conventional features.

Untermeyer is a good place to go in October if you like grand old-old European beeches, so awesome.

Busy bees on ravishing dahlias.

End-of-the-season plants, all as beautiful as anything at peak season.

Newly restored tilework in the reflecting pools, gorgeous.

Rumi-native quotes surrounding it. Mind-blowing mystics.

Photo ops all around.

The usual ho-hum Hudson view.

And the peerless sky above.

But what most amazes us of all the amazing sights, the Stumpery.

Big, gnarly specimens have been hauled to this wooded location and set up all around. Not just one. Dozens.  It’s like a fairy tale has been enacted in this forest.

One of us had been to see a stumpery in England and felt impelled to visit this one.

Will these guys eventually be planted with decorative greenery as is done in England? A mystery.

Who cares, actually? The stumps are perfect as they are now.

Which brings me to critter holes, another natural phenomenon sometimes taken for granted.

We notice more than one along the way.

Might I say a word on their behalf? I’ve often admired them, not only at Untermeyer but in so many other locales as well.

From upstate New York.

To Arizona.

And all in between.

Holes in trees are okay, by the way. 

They do not mean the tree is going to fall over on a passerby.

Actually, according to experts I know, it’s the tree that appears perfectly healthy that might prove the riskiest in a storm.

When a tree is injured — say it gets hit by lightning or scraped by a truck or develops a cavity for almost any reason —  it does something ingenious, protecting itself by slowing the spread of disease and decay, actually forming “walls” around the injured area.

The walls run in every direction and help the tree survive. The process actually makes the tree stronger.

Then the cavity affords a home for an animal, or animals. So critter holes are actually more than just okay.

I’ve often thought my fondest wish — well, one of them, I have so many — would be to crawl into a critter hole. Anybody home?

Hiking up from the stumpery with my friends, we pass a newly restored wall that people have decorated with good-luck cairns.

Somehow I think all those magnificent stumps and critter holes are tokens of good luck as well.

As beautiful as any ho-hum pool blossom.

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Forests and New York City

is not a pairing that would make sense to some people outside the Metropolitan Area (we always say that, as though there is no other metropolitan area in the world). But majestic trees do exist among the concrete canyons of NY.

I’ve been fortunate to come up close to some of them.

Walt Whitman: Why are there trees I never walk under but large and melodious thoughts descend upon me? In New York, there are plenty of inspiring ginkgo biloba‘s.

But also majestic oaks. I visited a grove in Central Park.

Not just any oaks. These were uncommon oaks. There were mature Northern red oaks.

I also saw swamp white oaks and sawtooth oaks.

While you’ll find both as street trees in New York, here they were massive, ancient, awe inspiring.

And so I go to the woods. As I go in under the trees, dependably, almost at once, and by nothing I do, things fall into place. I enter an order that does not exist outside, in the human spaces….I am less important than I thought. I rejoice in that. So said Wendell Berry.

Some folks on hand didn’t seem much impressed, preferring a nap to gazing upward in rapture.

But I was definitely taking notice.

Especially having recently visited the New-York Historical Society for an exhibit about early New York.

Of course there were many great artifacts, but a special treat was a fragment of oak log from an early Manhattan canal hundreds of years back. That’s how sturdy and strong and lasting oak is.

Just outside Central Park, a line of gargantuan elms strides down Fifth Avenue.

When the infamous elm blight decimated the canopies of so many urban areas’ Ulmus americana back in the early twentieth century, these elder stateswomen clearly did not take the hint. What doesn’t kill me makes me stronger — so said Nietzsche, correct for once.

I recently attended a tree climbing workshop in North Carolina with my daughter Maud.

The old-old trees we climbed were extraordinary. White oaks all around.

And chestnut oaks. Luminous.

Back in New York, I rediscovered the fantastic trees all around. Still some cherries.

Some of the most fantastic specimens thrived far from the posh environs in and around Central Park. It’s linden season, when their magical bracts appear.

I came across a red oak in Queens when I was on a tree preservation job.

Nature thrives in Queens, it’s not just trees. I saw some peppy petunias.

Delicate bleeding hearts worthy of any country estate.

Perfect peonies, their fragrance really indescribable. Just try. Yes, in Queens.

On frenetic 20th Avenue in Whitestone, right down the block from the bioswales trench I was inspecting and just around the corner from some sad, spent ash trees, I came across the ubiquitous Dr. Seuss specimens that are ubiquitous on Queens streets.

But then, this mammoth Northern red oak! Hard to do justice to this ladytree’s girth in a photo. Suffice it to say I could wrap my arms around her a couple of times.

She was kind enough to drop leaf bouquets on the sidewalk and host a clutch of hostas in her lap.

While some stern stone eagles oversaw the scene.

Inspired by a wetter and warmer May courtesy of climate change, I knew I’d find nature thriving at the New York Botanical Garden, a Bronx oasis thronged by both native New Yorkers and tourists on this Memorial Day weekend.

The tone was set by a topiary White Rabbit, complete with pocket watch, part of a Garden-wide Alice in Wonderland display.

All around were clever signs. I overheard a woman say, “The Caterpillar always creeped me out.”

I wouldn’t say that about anything in Alice! What I was thinking about at NYBG was how great it would be to drink a magic potion and crawl into one of the abundant flowers in the ravishing Rose Garden.

Sometimes I’ve believed as many as six impossible things before breakfast, said the Queen. Hear, hear.

Hard to do justice to the array of blooms there.

They dazzled as roses always do.

Funny, though, whether white or yellow, pink, red or purple, stick your nose in and they all smell the same. Phenomenal, but the same. Flowers, I ask, must you be so boring?

All around, people were posing as if they were themselves flowers, so I did too.

And a guy got into the springtime spirit with his slogan tote bag. Think I might get this on a tee shirt to join my newest wardrobe favorite: UNDERESTIMATE ME: That’ll be fun.

Just up from the Rose Garden, kids played with another Alice-themed attraction, a monochrome chessboard created by Yoko Ono that suggests the essential futility of war. We’re all on the same side, after all. Gil tried to set the game up properly, when he wasn’t inciting Memorial Day riots with his George Orwell tee shirt.

We saw other seasonal stand-out specimens of the urban forest. A Kousa dogwood having its moment.

Some carved beeches I’d probably passed a million times before but never noticed.

There’s always something new to notice when you pay attention. Mary Oliver wrote:

Instructions for living a life:

Pay attention.

Be astonished.

Tell about it.

We walked through the Thain Forest, a certifiable old-growth tract thick with sweetgums that gave me a few souvenirs to bring home (remember, though, take nothing but pictures!).

A critter hole made me again want to shrink like Alice. Anyone home? Mind if I come in?

The trees of the city, the flowers of the city form a promise, an opportunity for optimism and hope in these sometimes dark, difficult times. If they can grow and thrive, if they survive, perhaps we can too. I dwell in possibility wrote Emily Dickinson, she who thought a good deal about nature.

You can’t take a whole forest home with you.

But when you pay attention, the vision of those trees and flowers might linger with you in your workaday life and help you remember your place in the natural world, and also bring some joy.

Even if you take nothing but pictures.

That’s my promise.

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I’ve known these trees and stones, these streams and trails forever.

Growing up in the Village of Hastings-on-Hudson in southern Westchester County, Hillside Woods was a personal oasis. Not deep forest, not a virgin tract, but one hundred acres that formed the backdrop of my life — and so many other peoples’ as well.

When I heard about an effort to escort deer out of Hillside Woods, I relished a chance to help mend this broken urban forest, to heal it, to restore what’s been lost over time.

The experience offered so much more as well.

Over the years, with the explosion of the deer population in this small municipality, the animals’ biological need to browse had resulted in an almost total decimation of the forest understory. The lovely critters form a natural part of the local ecosystem, of course, but in large numbers they can ruin a forest.

The Village erected a deer exclosure in Fall 2023 around 30 acres as a way of starting to bring back the health of Hillside Woods. “S” gates at intervals allow people and dogs to walk in and out of the place.

Like any attempt to bring deer out of a wooded area — and the Hastings endeavor modeled itself on many other successful ones —this one represented an ongoing process. A bold new attempt was needed to complement the not-perfect exclosure.

So I joined in the deer drive.

Organizers with the Village had been careful to instruct people in advance about how the process would be managed.

“Now that the exclosure is constructed, we will gently usher deer within the 30 acres of fencing through the exit in its northwest corner and seal it shut. We need 100+ participants to walk in a slow, meditative line from the east side of the exclosure westward.“ Any deer met along the way would be nudged out one remaining gap in the fence.

Questions were natural. What was this experience going to be like? I think everyone who convened in the all-purpose room of Hillside Elementary School wondered that.

Perhaps a few were feeling a little apprehensive. Would we find deer? What would their behavior be? Would they bolt? Would anyone trip, sprain an ankle?

This was a perfectly beautiful day, the last Saturday in winter, with more than a hint of spring in the air.

Daffodils bloomed in the school’s flower beds.

Later, I surveyed volunteers: What was your favorite thing about today?

Seeing the positive community building, said Tom Kenney of Hastings.

Seeing the degree of participation in something I value, preservation of natural spaces and habitat for birds, said Linda Brunner, a Yonkers resident. Ruth Kotecha said, I was involved in protecting Hillside Woods from development in 1989, and I’m just so happy to see that now that we own the woods we’re going to save them.

Community building, agreed Nicholas Reitt. Gene Ruseigno of Yonkers said. All the people chipping in, and the main thing is there are young people here.

The community coming together, said Cat McGrath, who heads up the community group Protect Our Woods.

I’m always excited when I meet a birder, said Bob Sullivan of Philadelphia, because I’m a wannabe birder.

Hiking through the woods was Mahopac resident Greg Montano’s favorite thing about the day. His teenage son agreed, word for word.

Nature enthusiasts gathered from well beyond Hastings’ borders to help. The mayor took part. The videographer for the local cable channel documented.

The head of the rec department attended, as did the chief of police and the local EMT’s.

One cracked beforehand, We hope we won’t be seeing you later!

Before teams of around a dozen people each marched off to the Woods, the scores of volunteers gathered to hear a briefing by Haven Colgate, Chair of the Village Conservation Commission, who spearheaded the project.

What was your favorite thing about today? Jane Davis of Hastings: Just being outside in the woods on a sunny morning.

Then we entered, walking single file along the southern boundary of the Woods.

“Pods” of deer escorts arranged themselves in a loose line, then as a group moved calmly toward the northwest perimeter.

Deer drivers self-selected into two teams. The “steeps” tackled the rock outcroppings to the east of the Park, the hillsides after which Hillside Woods were named.

And there were the “flats,” participants happier on the more level terrain. Lovely weather! someone called to me. A woman joked, The deer aren’t here, they’re editing my flower garden!

I saw a few blooms, most notable for being the only ones along the way.

The fence looked remarkably delicate. Almost pretty. Especially when I realized how crucial that fence would be to bringing back what are called “spring ephemerals,” the first forest flowers of the season. None grow here now, nor have they for many, many years.

I found landmarks everywhere from earlier happy times. Memories of strolling by the Vernal Pond, with its thunderous orchestra of peepers.

Hanging out at the Chimney.

All the trails, so familiar from taking the trails there with my dogs and a lot earlier, roaming with teenage buddies, far from prying adult eyes.

No deer to be found this morning. A good thing! They would now find their suppers in other locales. I found it possible to begin to imagine forest floor leaf-out in the future, the resurgence of greenery and blossoms.

Spirits were high. Friends greeted friends. People made new acquaintances. Randy Paradise said he liked best talking with people I hadn’t met before.

What was your favorite part? Teenager Victor Valentine was definite. The really steep part! Same for Rich Lovejoy: The steep climb!

Being outdoors in really nice weather, said Katie Leune of Elmsford.

Just being with the community — and the sun! said Sharon Kivowitz.

Getting my foot stuck in Vernal Pond! joked Lindsey Taylor, showing off her muddy shoe.

Part of the day’s good feeling clearly derived from fellowship with neighbors, part from the sense of doing the right thing. My favorite part was community togetherness, said Ramsey Faragallah of Hastings. Lucy Corrigan agreed: A sense of small-town community that reminded me of my childhood.

Seeing the community come together to support an environmental effort, said Arthur Magun.

The community aspect, said Elise Zazzara.

Connecting with the people, said Jonathan Billig.

John Zeiger: It was a good introduction for the community to environmental stewardship.

Volunteers gathered garbage as they went.

There was a lot of trash to collect.

Quite a lot.

Mayor Niki Armacost said her favorite part was collecting trash with so many lovely Hastings people.

Other surprises lay amid the leaf litter. Some magic.

Late in the hike a coyote appeared, posing on a boulder above the Vernal Pond before skedaddling away.

Gil Reavill, leader of billy goat group 4, took a moment at the windup on the northern edge of the Woods to declaim an ode he’d penned along the way:

We are the Steeps!

We cover ground in bounds and leaps

When the hills get hillier we get sillier

Let those who prefer the path to be flatter

Go their own way — it doesn’t matter

We are the Steeps! We are the Steeps!

We pray the fates our feets to keeps

Afterwards, pizza in the all purpose room, welcome sustenance for happy but perhaps a bit tired participants. A total of one hundred and one citizens had taken part, as well as numerous Village staffers.

What did organizer Haven like best about the day? She was succinct. The weather and the vibe, she said. Go Hastings!

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It might seem counterintuitive, yes, or even disingenuous:

to talk about a 2024 resolution to be less annoying, less grandiose, less showoffy, less of a know it all, and to do it in a blog that showcases me, me, me.

I know. It is true.

And yet, hiking the Fay Canyon trail this morning I can’t help but ponder my resolve, how I might achieve it, and how I might write about it here. And illustrate with my own photos, of course. I might not even have used those words, counterintuitive and disingenuous, incorrectly. But see how I full steam ahead as though I did?

Bear with me.

Juniper, oak and manzanita dominate this forest landscape.

The oaks are different than we have back east. Gambel oaks, Emory oaks. Interesting growth habit, unusual leaves.

Plenty of beauty all around.

I’ve always loved manzanita for its dead and live parts intertwined.

A little way in I come upon my first alligator of the day.

The alligator juniper, magnificent, and even a conjoined specimen, my favorite.

Me, me, meMy favorite, which I’m telling you about here. They’re so hardy, their roots can grow into rock.

Which one is your favorite, though? Slightly less arrogance, slightly more consideration for other people.

Conjoined junipers abound. Husband-and-wife trees, not rare here in Sedona. I’m taking lots of photos.

Hikers pass me on the trail. I overhear snippets of conversation about trees, technology, how many eggs are left in someone’s refrigerator. Should we go out and buy more? says the first. Her companion: Probably not necessary.

The ground underneath the juniper’s branches swims with berries, their blue coated with a fine white powder.

Tell-tale sign of some animal.

Coyote? Fox? Javelina? A person scolded me once for offering a photo of scat in this blog. I love its mystery, though, the story it tells of other creatures in these woods when our human backs are turned. I follow the stream bed, hiking the dry wash.

I reach the end of the trail, the end of the box canyon.

I see a jumble of boulders adorned by the backpack of a human lucky enough to find themselves amid this place’s grandeur.

Another sign of humans, a marker that seems kind of corny and almost quaint in our digital age.

Time to turn around, head back to the parking lot, out of this fantastic realm.

I pass some novel sights along the way.

Hello! I love you. Won’t you tell me your name?

More gorgeous lichen.

Time-roughened bark.

A juvenile specimen.

More old and new, combined in the bark of numerous grizzled junipers.

Oddly, then, my impulse to pursue my goal of less ego, more modesty, becomes replaced as I walk the path along the wash.

I remember another resolution I’ve made, equally powerful: to try to live in the Now.

I reach a little clearing and find myself standing still. Suddenly there are no humans within hearing distance. The only acoustics: birds twittering in the undergrowth and above. I look up.

I scan down the trail, where I’m headed.

I turn my focus back to where I’ve come from.

All around me is such intense beauty.

And I have an epiphany. This, actually, is the Now. This is the only moment.

My feet are suddenly rooted to the sandy ground.

I can’t move. I look around some more.

I start to weep. Look up again, helpless. The morning sky smiles down, my only friend.

Gaze around me.

Everything so quiet, so still, so perfect. Peaceful. Luminous. It’s a kind of active contentment I can’t recall feeling before. My worries about the past and future recede. I know those concerns exist, but they’ve faded to the edges, temporarily invisible.

Can every moment resonate like this one? Can I live in the Now, if not always, then more often? I’m not sure.

I never want to leave this place, this moment. 

After standing there stock still for a while, I remember I said I’d return by a certain time. I move off my sandy perch and head back down the trail. I see some unfamiliar things as I go.

Some details I missed on the way into the canyon.

Pass a few folks laughing, tromping down the trail, having their normal conversations.

I’m back to normal too, but with a powerful feeling I know I’ll carry with me into the Now of 2024.

Should we buy eggs today? Probably not necessary.

What we have to put in our mouths at this moment will do just fine.

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Take a closer look. 

What do you see?

It’s almost the new year.

Time to look within.

How will you change?

What parts will endure?

Is the past alive?

Is it dead?

Somewhere in between?

Is life short?

Sometimes seems that way.

Is life long?

Could be.

It’s all relative. We need to name things, somehow.

Of course.

Sometimes it’s beautiful.

Well, it’s always beautiful.

Look closely at someone you love.

Try to see into their soul.

Can you go there?

Will they let you?

If you’re lucky, yes. 

It’s artificial, this threshold. 

The difference between the 31st and the 1st.

But it is an opportunity. 

To pause. 

To see. 

Is everything just as you would like it to be?

This is your choice. 

Your chance. 

Take it.

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Winter color so vivid all around

at Wave Hill, the historic estate in Riverdale, the Bronx. Always a magnificent public-access arboretum, but perhaps especially beautiful on this brisk early afternoon in mid-December.

Berries all around. Not only crimson holly, perfect for the season.

But purple. The aptly named beautyberry.

Shakespeare wrote about boughs which shake against the cold,/Bare ruin’d choirs, where late the sweet birds sang. He might have been describing one of the most majestic trees here, a weeping beech.

The birds, though, are still at Wave Hill in full force.

Making a mad racket and perching on branches specially decorated for them.

Garlands of things they love to eat. Berries, yes. Also, even more delectable for them, the fruits of the Osage orange. An ancient species that dates back to at least the last ice age, when seeds were most likely spread by mastodons, sloths and other creatures that consumed them.

Squirrels like the seedballs too, hence the one we find partially devoured along our way.

To celebrate the fir tree season, we pay a visit to the conifer grove.

Gorgeous specimens all around.

So many different species.

Each beautiful in its own way

Some exotic, like a China fir.

There is even a giant redwood cultivar. A real redwood, like they have on the West Coast.

Is it possible to overuse the descriptor beautiful? On this day, no. Everything is beautiful.

We take the Woodland Trail, which winds along the edge of the property. We see evidence of the human hand tucked into the corners. This isn’t an old-growth forest, after all!

A private school adjoins the property. We hear children shrieking on a playground as we go, having fun at recess. Find a gazebo — nice place to sit and reflect, if that’s your thing. Ours is more along the lines of walking to stay warm on this cold early afternoon.

Someone was here before and loved someone.

A hand-hewn belvedere. Think about the people employed here to build it long ago, probably old-world stonemasons who gifted our country with their expertise.

So much texture in these woods.

Hackberry.

Black cherry.

Sweet birch.

Lichen.

The intricate embroidery of oak leaves underfoot.

Something odd, a measuring tape around a trunk.

Wonder if someone trying to get a DBH left this tool by mistake. This is an arboretum, after all. Or are they trying to girdle the tree so that it will fall over time? Nah, who would do that to a fine old Northern red oak?

Mysteries. Who tagged this tree and for what inventory?

How could any tree be as beautiful as this one with braided twin trunks? Tell me if you find one.

Wave Hill isn’t only about trees and plants. There’s history here too. Illustrious visitors spent time on the estate, with an overnight guest list including Thomas Huxley and Charles Darwin. A teenage Teddy Roosevelt summered here. Later, as governor of the state, he became very active in preserving the view across the river.

Did Roosevelt’s  Wave Hill summers have anything to do with his adult efforts to create the National Parks system? Inquiring minds want to know.

Arturo Toscanini also put in some time here. He’d play concerts on the lawn. His guests included Queen Elizabeth II and John Foster Dulles. Mark Twain stayed at Wave Hill between 1901 and 1903.

There are numerous historic buildings, and I’ve often wondered where specifically Twain resided. We know that he set up a writing retreat in the branches of a chestnut tree.

In her memoir, his daughter Clara quoted Twain as saying: I believe we have the noblest roaring blasts here I have ever known on land; they sing their hoarse song through the big tree-tops with a splendid energy that thrills me and stirs me and uplifts me and makes me want to live always.

We go in to get warm in one of the buildings, the one with a ballroom and a great old fireplace decorated for the holidays.

Twain also wrote, This dining-room is a paradise, with the flooding sunshine, the fire of big logs.

I greet old friends at Wave Hill, great trees I’ve visited time and time again over the years. The grand littleleaf linden.

A particular sweetgum.

The crazy looking red of the Japanese red pine .

Go up close and see the delicately beautiful thatch of needles in its crook.

We pass a quiet place where spring bulbs slumber. I’ve seen this careful sign before.

Then, at the end of our walk, the copper beech. There are two here, actually. One is perfectly balanced, untouched by time.

The other, though, down a slope, I like just as much. She has bark that has been scarified over the years by people engraving their initials and hearts.

In her book about the beech, Casting Deep Shade, poet C.D. Wright tells us that the druids grew wise eating the nuts of the species. This being a mast year, I find tons of beechnuts underfoot at Wave Hill.

Some tree folks don’t like these autobiographical messages on beech bark, opining that the practice of carving disrupts the tree’s vascular system. But look at the health of this tree, probably two hundred years old. I like the engraved graffiti, because to me it proves people’s strong, abiding connection with trees.

It seemed a mere toss-up whether she said, “I love you,” or whether she said, “I love the beech-trees,” or only “I love—I love,” wrote Virginia Woolf in Night and Day

Thoreau wrote, I frequently tramped eight or ten miles through the deepest snow to keep an appointment with a beech-tree, or a yellow birch, or an old acquaintance among the pines.

Love is like a tree, wrote Victor Hugo. It grows of its own accord, it puts down deep roots into our whole being. I like to think of some lost soul tramping miles through a forest, too shy to unburden himself to the person he cares for, and surreptitiously taking switchblade out of pocket to pronounce, indelibly, the sentiment I love—I love.

Herman Hesse wrote, When we have learned how to listen to trees, then the brevity and the quickness and the childlike hastiness of our thoughts achieve an incomparable joy.

We leave the estate.

Passing by more beauty as we go.

Wind up at a favorite deli only a few blocks away for some sustenance after our poetic excursion —somewhat less poetically, with one of the best sandwiches in New York City. This pastrami might be historic. Even beautiful, if you consider its taste in your mouth.

Almost historic, almost as beautiful as the landscapes of Wave Hill.

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Plants have names.

Even those plants most people would walk right by and have no idea what to call them. In the desert, maybe, especially.

It helps if you’re lucky enough to be with someone who knows most of the names.

Like my brother. He seems to be acquainted with everything we pass this morning on this quiet little trail in Sedona.

Of course he knows the juniper.

The prickly pear.

Manzanita.

And the pinyon pine.

But also the things most hikers don’t know. Crucifixion thorn.

Banana yucca.

Saltbush.

Nightshade.

Catclaw. If you pull it this way, it’s sharp, he says. They make honey out of it.

Of course there are a few species even he does not know. Wright’s silk tassel, for example. Or sixweek’s three-awn.

Or wait-a-minute. Its minute seemingly past.

I think those sound like Medieval ones, titled long ago.

When you can walk around and name natural aspects of the world around you, it gives you a feeling of satisfaction. Even elation.

Elated is how I feel on this little trail today in sight of some of the biggest mountains around.

These rock formations so dramatic under the lowering storm clouds, especially fronted by beautiful wreckage.

Not, perhaps, as subtle as wait-a-minute. But both are arresting.

Mysteries do occur also on this trail, things we cannot name. Gorgeous, syrupy, silvery sap.

A very humble stone, its bald head poking up amid the shrubbery.

A rock embedded in the red sand.

A metal structure whose use is lost to time.

A puddle. The simple wetness of a pool. So unusual in the high desert.

As is a drum. Why is it here?

Just to make a sound.

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Had a little rain last night.

Really? You don’t say.

We’re used to the regular deluge back east, especially lately. But here in the southwest, of course, raindrops are so rare as to be remarkable.

There hasn’t been any rain in Phoenix in months. And even when drops do fall, as they did for a bit yesterday, much of it is what’s called virga, precipitation that evaporates before reaching the ground. Today, even dry things glisten.

I walk among the rain-refreshed plantings in the desert garden.

Something we take for granted in the northeast: rain. Something they take for granted in the southwest: having a big honker of a saguaro right outside your back door.

The birds seem happy.

Munching prickly pear fruits.

I feel happy. Unwinding, unspooling, recharging my batteries.

I like to say I’ve been working so hard. But really, working? Does that make sense when you enjoy all the things you do? Maybe enjoying is better. I’ve been enjoying so hard.

Palo verde. How chartreuse can a plant be?

Everything is magnified here under the puffer clouds.

The fringe of mesquite.

So infinitely delicate.

A scatter of pods.

Does the saguaro know how ridiculous it looks sometimes?

Bougainvillea speaks to me.

Don’t work so hard. Don’t enjoy so hard. Fall into the petals of a flower. Nourish yourself. Here on the path, I’m all by myself. I live in that solitude which is painful in youth, but delicious in the years of maturity. So said Albert Einstein.

Not totally alone. Communing with a bee on the Mexican petunia. Mexican petunia? Invasive! Who cares? Not me, at the moment.

Speaking of invasive, palms.

They stretch themselves upwards. If it rains, it rains. If it doesn’t, they’re still there, holding the sky aloft.

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There are many great trees in New York City.

Yes, true. But what about the Great Trees of New York City? This is the brainchild of New York City Parks, which is reviving a project that was last completed in the 1985 with the goal of identifying the most iconic trees in all the five boroughs. Ordinary citizens nominate exceptional trees, as many as they want, as defined by their historic, botanical and cultural significance.

Having been fortunate enough to be appointed a judge for 2023’s Great Tree Search, I am excited to start off on some new adventures. My assigned beat is the Bronx, a great place whose eclectic neighborhoods stretch all the way from the swellegant precincts of Riverdale to the famously underserved South Bronx. It’s also a place I’ve spent considerable time as a consultant on tree preservation for NYC.

This time I go some places I’ve never been before, and discover a fantastic meshing of arboriculture and history. I enlist Gil as a driver, because it’s hard to drive in New York City traffic and spot trees at the same time, even gigantic trees. We have a spreadsheet to guide us that cites peoples’ nominations as well as some of their comments about why a particular specimen is worthy of the distinction.

The first entry on our list is quite civilized. A ginkgo on a small street abutting Webster Avenue.

Ginkgo biloba dates back 270 million years, and was thought to be extinct until it was rediscovered by a German scientist in late 1600s Japan. A group of Chinese Buddhist monks made it their mission to save and cultivate the species.

It is one of the few trees useful for food foraging in this urban jungle. Yes, the fruits are slimy, smelly. But each one holds a nut at its core (actually a seed) that is sold in Korea, Japan and China as a “silver apricot nut.” They are usually roasted prior to eating and used in desserts, soups and with meat. Each fall you’ll see many people in the City gathering this ample harvest. 

Will I really have to choose among these trees? I’m already asking myself – and I’ve only seen one so far! But let’s continue.

We prowl along to little Perry Avenue in the Bronx and discover a gargantuan willow oak.

What on earth is it doing in this quiet backwater?

Among other things, towering over the houses with health-giving shade, creating a beautiful fall carpet of leaves, and offering shelter for squirrels with a major nest. Oh yes, and uncomplainingly eating carbon and pouring out oxygen for us slackers to breathe.

We find another nominee on a peaceful little street, Thierot Avenue.

A silver maple. Now, these trees get a bad rap among urban foresters. They’re brittle, they rain down branches, yada yada. But look at this beauty. “It is the LARGEST TREE in the community,” reads the comment on the spreadsheet. “Could be a hundred years old.”

Huge (of course), three stems, fantastic shaggy bark, spreading her roots all over the place as is her right. And a perfect place for posing schoolkids. Who shout “Save the Trees!” over their shoulders as they scamper away.

We venture to Corona Park, home to several potential Great Trees, all of them amazing. First, a majestic American elm at the corner entrance.

A photo really cannot do her justice. You have to mosey underneath those sprawling branches, touch the bark. Gaze overhead at the sky through her crown.

Perhaps the most beautiful tree I’ve ever seen. (And I’ve seen a few, so maybe just the most beautiful of the day. So far.) Then, we go elsewhere in the same park in quest of two hefty ashes that grow across a path from each other, seemingly competing for the Venus of New York prize. One is a marvel, yes. “This majestic Green Ash with a trunk size of 54″ is a gem and sits in the center of the pathway along passive lawn areas and rolling hills.”

To locate the tree I ask some folks hanging out with their kids in the nearby playground. They do not speak English, so their seven year old translates as they gesture down the way: “Big tree down there, take a turn to the right and you can’t miss it!” An understatement.

Even more impressive, the ash nearby. “Thickest tree in the Bronx, probably NYC too.”

Don’t you mind the fruiting bodies at the base, this one is clearly a survivor.

Wandering out of the park at as the dusk grows all around us I notice a planting that will ensure the health of this urban forest for the future, a baby beech.

Since we’re making these adventures at the end of the workday, we’re lucky enough to visit all these sites at the magic hour, just as the sun is getting ready to set. So we arrive at a spot we’ve heard about but never spent a lot of time, Pelham Bay Park.

We take our nightfall hike on a trail around Hunter Island, 166 acres of wilderness in the heart of the Bronx, right on the Long Island Sound. The person who nominated a post oak here wrote a lengthy treatise on the specimen’s history, saying, in part: “This grove of post oaks dates back to the 1760s. Post Oak is native but rare in NYC. This beautiful specimen is growing right out of bedrock that includes gneiss with stunning seams of quartz, and is right on the Sound. This tree projects the grit and resilience for which the city is renowned.”

Of course, that more than whets my appetite to find this spectacular tree. But it’s not easy. Entering the park, we find massive white oaks and scarlet oaks. This is a mast year, and all around the ground is carpeted with acorns that crunch underfoot.

A trail takes us through groves of sweet birch.

We see almost no one.

I wade ankle deep across a mossy inlet, into the darkening woods under a rising full moon.

It gets dimmer, dimmer.

Wither the post oak? It’s a member of the white oak family, and all the trees in these woods have interbred for so long that I think any of them could be the oak in question. Though I cannot find the exact leaf, with its lobes that remind some of a Maltese cross, there are plenty of similar leaves.

We’ll have to come back again, perhaps by the light of day.

On another afternoon, back in the city proper, we locate a venerable black tupelo.

“At the edge of the forested land on Mosholu Parkway North, facing the apartment buildings.” Sounds mysterious, and I’m afraid we will not find it, especially as the gloaming comes onWe cadge a parking space and I walk directly to the tree as by a homing device.

I think of a couple of lines by poet Jane Hirshfield: “I would like not minding, whatever travels my heart. To follow it all the way into leaf-form, bark-furl, root-touch, and then keep walking, unimaginably further.”

We discover a cottonwood just off Van Cortland Park South in an old schoolyard. It towers over the neighborhood. Once, apparently, during the Revolutionary War, this tree was used for hanging traitors.”

I check the spreadsheet. “Cottonwood trees typically grow in riparian areas, which at first seems odd, given its current location, but makes sense once you realize that the Tibbets Brook runs underneath.” I’ve heard that Tibbetts Brook is soon to be daylighted, and I wonder what will happen to the cottonwood when that happens. Will they retain it and will it continue to provide shade and beauty of local residents?

Moshulu Parkway and Gun Hill Road are sites for some other old-old trees that also date back to the Revolution. We visit “the oldest sassafras tree in the Bronx, an amazing holdover from when the land was converted from farm to parkland.”

It is said to be larger than the state champion in Green-Wood Cemetery. And that’s saying something. “However, its true age will never be known because it is mostly hollow.”

No matter, it is magnificent. Nearby, a white oak stands tall above a wall on Gun Hill Road.

Beneath the tree’s enormous canopy runs the Old Aqueduct Trail, another landmark, an engineering marvel from from the time when clean water was piped in from the Croton Reservoir in northern Westchester County. “Assuming was planted along Gun Hill as historical marker.” Makes total sense.

All Gil can say for hours afterward is: That white oak. That white oak was amazing. The wonders of this city’s urban forest are manifold. I’m starting to dream about Bronx trees. We’ve been going out to find them every day.

Now we venture to Ewen Park. I’ve never heard of the place, but I know there is a nominated cherry tree here “south of the dog run.” Tramping all over and unable to find it, we see some of the substantial rock formations that never got blasted away when much of New York City was originally leveled for development.

We ask a dog walker to direct us.

Poseidon, a proud Cane Corso, would not be caught dead in a dog run. But Poseidon’s helpful person directs us down the hill and up the “unmarked trail” to the spot. She has me at “unmarked trail,” my favorite kind of path. We locate the huge old cherry.

“This is one of the biggest, oldest trees in the park,” reads the nomination. “It provides habitat and food for our migratory and resident birds.” Its once-delicate lenticels have gone crusty with age.

It nestles a young’un in its crook.

On the way out of the park, I find a microforest of sweetgums. What’s not to love about a sweetgum? 

Their prickly seedballs are a marvel of the season.

Two conjoined trunks seemed to be pouring their hearts out.

I admire a small maple, sporting the usual colorful frou frou of the season. Watch me turn colors! I’m a maple! Sure, m’am, but you clearly haven’t met the other contenders, the sassafras or the black tupelo.

Everywhere I go I stumble upon fantastic trees that were not nominated as Great Trees. Yes, the pin oak in Crotona is spectacular. The zelkovas on Webster, definitely worth noting officially. But what about this particular sweetgum?

Ewen Park, which I’d never before heard of, dates back to when Frederick Van Cortland owned the land. It has a long stone staircase that serves as a conduit between the neighborhoods of Kingsbridge and Riverdale. At the base of the steps I find a marker that establishes the place’s bona fides. It states the number of stairs. In Latin.

History is everywhere. You can read the past  in the trunks and branches, leaves and fruits of the trees in the Bronx. Some of them Great Trees. But also, trees that might not necessarily be identified as such. Not necessarily winners, but trees that are nonetheless special.

And that is pretty great.

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“Purple and gold season”

is how Cornell Botanic Gardens’s docent Dana describes the end of summer and the first days of fall.

She professes herself to find it a bit boring. I look out the window when we’re driving in the car and that’s all I see, purple and gold, purple and gold.

Dana shows us the native aster blooming in a border of the Cultivated Plant Collection. The goldenrod.

Her exuberant, erudite and irreverent approach to the botanical world and her enthusiasm in sharing it with people are all on display first day of autumn in the Finger Lakes.

A Buddhist might call it the Eternal Now — this burnished morning, already warm yet crisscrossed with cool breezes. We walk together through the specialty gardens, the perennial beds, the tropical plants and grasses and herbs. These flowers, these trees are all that exist.

Dana raises horses, has about the longest braid I’ve ever seen down her back, and is one of the most quick-witted garden guides I’ve ever come across.

She shares some wisdom on making a mistake: You never say you’re wrong. Just, “actually”… to which a gentleman in the crowd adds enthusiastically, Truth challenged!

Now that we’ve got that straightened out.

We see a display of gourds, part of the Garden’s Seeds of Survival and Celebration installation. She explains their significance, You know that thing in the celestial heavens that we call the Big Dipper? In North Africa it’s called the Drinking Gourd. So the message to enslaved people in America was, “follow the drinking gourd.

She shows us millet.

On a pathway she shows us pots that were originally planted out for the opening of the Nevin Welcome Center in 2010 and now need to be moved inside every cold season and outdoors again in the spring. Be careful what you do because if you do it exceptionally well they’re going to ask you to do it over and over.

The tropical Princess flower, she tells us, is her favorite. She’s very soft, and has silver glitter on the leaves and flower.

Then, a relative of the tomato.

But it’s seriously saying, Don’t bite me. No grazing, please. Also, It has a fruit that can be brewed into a very potent alcohol.

Dana does a special symbiosis tour once a month in which she talks about the relationship between plants. She calls it secrets of the garden.

Lest you think this tour is all about flowers and fruits, it is not. There is art.

And plenty of trees. She shows us the tulip poplar.

It is neither tulip nor poplar. But it is the tallest tree native to this region. Liriodendron tulipifera, she tells us, has musical instrument-shaped leaves and tulip-shaped flowers. This particular specimen is equipped with lightning rods that don’t happen to be attached to its ground rod.

It’s probably eighty to one hundred years old.

Dana explains the difference between and annual and a perennial plant. It’s pretty basic, she says. She explains the meaning of the word cultivar.

She shows us an aluminum tag.

Students come In and randomize these tags. It’s not funny!

These just keep spreading.

I’m touching everything. I can’t help it. I want to learn about everything here. I’m reminded of the lines from Walt Whitman’s Leaves of Grass:

The atmosphere is not a perfume, it has no taste of the distillation, it is odorless,

It is for my mouth forever, I am in love with it,

I will go to the bank by the wood and become undisguised and naked,

I am mad for it to be in contact with me.

We see a mammoth zelkova.

Dana shows us an Eastern white pine.

It’s the tallest conifer native to this region, she tells the group. It was tremendously important to the Indigenous people here. The Five Tribes were warring, and they met beneath a white pine. And a leader said they’d be more successful if they worked together than if they fought. That was Hiawatha. We lifted their agreement for our constitution. We stole it. The Five Nations came together as the Haudenosaunee. Their symbol shows a white pine with all the weapons buried at the base and at the top an eagle overseeing the whole thing.

She shows us the needles that grow in fascicles.

There are five needles in each fascicle of an Eastern white pine. That’s how you can always identify the species.

Also, Dana says, you can brew the needles to make a tea that has more vitamin C than a lemon by squishing them and boiling them. It’s pale gold and slightly sweet, a treat you can make for your friends.

We stop by a Cornelian cherry dogwood.

Cornus mas, she says, giving us the scientific name. Mas means male in Greek. The Greeks used the wood to build their weapons of war. Since it was the wood used to make the boy stuff it was termed mas – male.

This tree probably predated the adjoining building. Oh, just a boring begonia.

Dana brings us to the herb garden. An herb simply means the plant’s not woody, she explains. In the herb garden you’ll find things that are significant to humanity that are not food-based. She tells us that in the garden we’ll find a bed of herbs related to literature: You can find rue, shake its little hand.

We enter. Bruise a few leaves, inhale the scent of sage.

She says, I want you to scratch and sniff. First, touch this plant.

Then, run fast over to this other flower and inhale.

Peppermint patty! And she is absolutely correct, as always. The first plant is mint, the second has the distinctive aroma of chocolate.

She relates the origin of the term nosegay. I didn’t know I’d ever wondered about that, but now I find myself getting curiouser and curiouser, as Lewis Carroll’s Alice would have it.

A nosegay was a bunch of herbs you’d carry against the stench of the world back in the Victorian era, it turns out. And you’d need a tussie mussie to hold it. Horse-drawn carriages actually have mounts to put these tussie mussies in.

Conveniently, Dana has a tussie mussie on hand to show us.

I peel off from the group, meet an energetic hound named Texie who seems to be inordinately stimulated by the herb garden’s scents.

I spy a Thai super-hot pepper.

Grain amaranth.

Cockscomb.

Lean in. Perfection in pink. I feel hypnotized by its fuschia.

I see the rue, shake its little hand.

Little purple flower. So boring!

Just when I think life could not get any better, I come to a tree.

I hear a kid say, It’s still living and they cut right through it! Within its massive trunk hangs a gong. The kid says to his mother, brother and grandmother, Let me show you the best thing!

We all observe the fish he points to in a small nearby pool.

They look happy there, says grandma. The kid’s brother rings the gong. Now we can have a mindful moment, says the kid. Such a super sound! says the mom.

I offer to take their picture. They offer to take mine, and I pose looking even more supercilious than usual, and quite a bit content.

I tear myself away from the happy family to see the Bird’s Eye Pepper, which has grown in Africa for centuries. One last picture before my phone runs out of juice!

No, one more! Hibiscus.

Inside the Welcome Center, I inspect a display of tree rings. Even my toe is lucky.

A lucky day all around. Fortune smiles on those of us who happen to be on Dana’s tour of Cornell Gardens this perfect first day of Fall.

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Poking around where I am not supposed to be

is a favorite pastime of mine.

All that we see or seem is but a dream within a dream, said Edgar Allan Poe. Thinking about some writers who have opined on the dark side of life as I spend some time in in a dream within a dream –  the abandoned Contagious Disease Hospital at Ellis, taking around a group of photographers for a day of shooting poetic spaces.

On this stormy morning in the tristate, almost everything is so beautifully dark.

Those who dream by day are cognizant of many things which escape those who dream only by night, wrote Poe. We visit hushed stairwells.

The simplest things have a surprising potency.

Heat.

Even a doorknob seems to have a story to tell.

Textures are always amazing here at the Hospital.

But today especially, in low light, they seem to whisper. Loudly.

A view.

I see some of the things I’ve seen many times before, old favorites. Simple things.

The bird’s nest in a light fixture.

A legend.

Always loved how that sentiment might apply to everyday emotional challenges.

This unlikely chair.

Cracked windows open to wild courtyards. I knew nothing but shadows and I thought them to be real, wrote Oscar Wilde in Dorian Gray.

The trees are both hideous and beautiful.

Mary Shelley wrote in FrankensteinThe world was to me a secret which I desired to devine.

There is golden light.

We’re open to the cold, storm-tossed waters of the Bay.

Everything more beautiful in the wet.

And I make some new discoveries. A bottle, miraculously untouched after a century.

Glass littering a floor

I feel both a little frightened and exhilarated. Beware; for I am fearless, and therefore powerful. Again, ShelleyShe should know; she had the courage to write a novel that would revolutionize literature when she was just nineteen years old. (Her mother was famous women’s rights advocate Mary Wollstonecraft.) 

So fortunate to be able to spend time in this iconic, moody place.

I see mysteries.

A ladder to nowhere.

More mysteries.

Some were healed here. Blue paint was thought to be calming, hence its use in the open bay psychiatric wards.

Things were clean, sanitary back in the day.

Some suffered. We know that people heaved themselves out the windows on the upper floors, hence the heavy-duty metal grates. Life, although it may only be an accumulation of anguish, is dear to me, and I will defend it. Shelley.

Nurses bunked near the psych wards. Each of their dorm rooms has a screen door against the mosquitos that would have been hell in pre-air-conditioning, pre-Deet New York Harbor.

I was never really insane except upon occasions when my heart was touched,  wrote Edgar Allan Poe.

There is a lot to touch your heart here.

If you only let it in.

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I get to the farm early.

Natch. I get everywhere early. In this case to a field trip for a conference I’m attending in the Finger Lakes region of New York. It’s to learn all about plants and trees and sustainability – you know, eco-concerns.

Yet for me it feels like so much more than the science. So many things I see and smell and feel are delicious.

And this visit reminds me of all the things I like about life. Well not all, of course, that would entail an encyclopedia. But some.

First, I have a private tailgate picnic in the parking lot with my favorite organic cheese (of course), crackers and a plastic knife. Wait for my fellow visitors to arrive.

Listen to the wind rustling the leaves.

Sit me down on a rusted old trailer hitch. Commune with bees in the goldenrod.

Admire the gourds ripening in a small field nearby.

They’re here for a practical reason, as source material for artists at Gourdlandia. At least to the extent of which art is practical.

I think about gourds. They have magical significance – in Africa the celestial phenomenon we know as the Big Dipper is called the Drinking Gourd, and escaped enslaved people in America were advised to follow the drinking Gourd to their freedom.

Still waiting, munching crackers, mentally ticking off the things I like.

I like taking notes on my phone. 

Taking phone pics of things I like.

Small things. A multitude of small delights constitute happiness. Baudelaire said that.

Quotes. I like them, too.

Asters.

Crickets buzzing all around in latest summer. 

I see flowers everywhere on this trip. A dahlia with personality to spare.

Hallucinatory in its vibrant beauty. Thoreau wrote, Live in each season as it passes; breathe the air. Drink the drink. Taste the fruit. And resign yourself to the influence of the earth.

I visit a sustainable farm. Nasturtiums sprout in the compost.

There are cattails.

Mysterious plant markers.

I stay in a cabin near a waterfall, overlooking Cayuga Lake. Just outside my door, soaring conjoined white oaks, planted there a hundred years ago. How did they know I was coming?

The waterfall, a local friend reminds me, is just water running over a rock, but still fabulous. After all, Taughannock is the highest waterfall east of the Rockies.

All around, a grove of shagbark hickory, which I’ve always loved because the name so exactly captures the way it looks.

The view of water through the trees.

I like initials carved anyplace, like the ones that have been sternly painted over on the front pillars of my cabin. I like the idea of people wanting to leave their mark, plant their flag.

If you do that at this state campground you’ll be fined five hundred dollars.

Something else I like, being warm in a sleeping bag when the air is cold. I think this must be the thing most universally loved.

And the dreams you have before you fall asleep at night. 

Wearing my father’s thick flannel shirt.

Textures. The crunchy cotton of an old quilt newly thrown across my bed for the change in season.

Also, reading late into the night. Especially reading something so good you wish you wrote it. As with my current obsession, a novel called The Vaster Wilds, by Lauren Groff, about a girl brave enough to escape 1600s Jamestown, who runs off through the scary forests of the time.

Hurkle-durkling – lounging in bed when you’ve got stuff you really should be doing – though that happens rarely in my life. I’m usually up and at ‘em. I get a chance to hurkle-durkle in my cabin.

The first gulp of coffee in the morning. Especially camping.

Peeing outside. It’s a must when you’re camping. But I like to do it whenever possible just to prove that though I’m female it’s nothing to go en plein air.

I visit a site that’s all about combining art and science, called Marshy Gardens. They have a urination station outside.

And a diagram in an art space delineating the pertinent science.

I’ve always resonated to the lyrics of the great Lucinda Williams in her song Sweet Old World, written for a friend who ended his own life, citing those experiences a person misses if they leave us too soon. Among them, the breath from your own lips/the touch of fingertips and the pounding of your heart’s drum/together with another one. Simple things, but oh so important.

Some inspiration tacked on the wall.

In the native wildflower beds, a suspended spider web.

I like everything about spiders. These particular intricate efforts, I learn, are created either by the black-tailed red sheetweaver or the bowl and doily spider. Of course.

All that I hope to say in books, all that I ever hope to say, is that I love the world. So said E. B. White, author of Charlotte’s Web, the book that probably taught me most of what I know about life.

More flowers. This one with a yellow-collared scape mothy perched on top. Perhaps it is sleeping. wonder what it’s dreaming of?

I really like flowers.

I know, so does everyone. It’s the easiest ask in the world: Will you please love flowers? Will you please love milkweed?

Joy Harjo writes:

Remember the plants, trees, animal life all have their 

tribes, their families, their histories, too. Talk to them, 

listen to them. They are alive poems.

At Marshy Gardens, an area of test plots. I swipe a cherry tomato, pop it in my mouth.

Perhaps the best cherry tomato I’ve ever had, and I have harvested tons of them at home this summer.. Kale prospers in a border, and I like kale. I know, everybody likes kale.

I’ve never been so hungry. The BLT I gobble down from a locally sourced co-op is the finest BLT I’ve ever had.

I visit a place called an eco-village, and among the other interesting sights find a bench kindly placed in an unexpected location, another of my favorite things.

There is a boat trip on the lake, pretty science-y. This is about as in depth as I go with the biology of this lake, though I’m sure it’s fascinating.

I’m more into dozing in the afternoon sun, daydreaming and idly observing the passing scenery.

Four bald eagles fly overhead, three juvenile, all massive. The energetic educator who loans me her binoculars reminds me that they fly flat as a board, unlike the teeter tottering of turkey vultures. Reminds me of my current favorite bird, the shy blue heron I’m trying to befriend at Ellis Island.

In synchronicity, I find his depiction in a garden here today. 

Also on the boat, a perfect exhibit of skulls on fur, which I am liking to think is beaver.

Something else I like is making mistakes, because that’s how I learn. A docent at Cornell Botanic Garden says, You never need say you’re wrong, just “actually.” To which a smart aleck adds, Truth challenged.

We pass cormorants as we go.

They seem beautiful and exotic to me, even though I learn that their excrement is damaging the trees they roost on. Useful knowledge. The inside of the boat’s hull has been painted.

Exquisitely.

Also exquisite, the aluminum can held by a new friend, an environmental geek like everyone here.

It’s just carbonated water, but everything about this person is somewhat dazzling, down to his toes.

Disembarking, I spot a mammoth Eastern cottonwood.

Have I mentioned that there are flowers?

And that I think flowers are okay? 

Well then. Take it from me. Freshly blooming, or spent.

They are.

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Late summer privacy.

I see no one on my walk to Lyndhurst, not a soul. My only company, late-season thistles along the path.

A weathered sign by the open-air entrance to the old estate tells the story of my day in a word. Private.

The Old Croton Aqueduct trail runs right through the grounds. Apparently the first owner of the property was proud, ecstatic to have the water run underground here when the water pipe was first installed, carrying water miraculously down from upstate to New York City.

You can stay on the trail. Or follow mysterious mysterious arrows. I choose not to follow.

The lawns and old, old trees beckon. Robert Graves wrote, Tranquility is of no poetic use. I beg to disagree. This morning is sheer poetry. The calming late-summer scents of grass and trees, the hum of insects, the perfect glaze of sky.

I have wondered recently, Why is the sky blue? Such a silly question. The science has long been in. But still – blue? Perfect azure? Really? Could the universe really be this kind? I visit a grove of tulip trees.

They stand poker-straight and are probably two hundred years old. Come close and touch the grooves.

Geese feed themselves on grass. Quietly, unhurried, unworried.

I feed myself too. I am hungry, having not eaten yet today. Now I feed my soul. I go to my favorite linden, the huge specimen with multiple stems and an enclosed space like a private drawing room.

There are many lindens here, some still holding onto their magical lemony bracts.

Octavio Paz wrote:

Perhaps to love is to learn

to walk through this world.

To learn to be silent

like the oak and the linden of the fable.

To learn to see.

Your glance scattered seeds.

It planted a tree.

   I talk

because you shake its leaves.

Seeking even greater privacy, greater tranquility, I visit one of the gargantuan, ancient weeping beeches on the grounds,

I push aside the branches and enter, finding myself inside a place so silvery dark and still and mysterious that no photo can really do it justice.

Others have been here before. Hello Bob, who did you love?

The branches twist together, sinuous. So quiet, yet so alive.

I run my hand along a smooth, muscular bough.

I stand there. I do nothing. It takes a lot of time to be a genius, wrote Gertrude Stein. You have to sit around so much, doing nothing, really doing nothing. I’m no genius, but I know that doing nothing can be an art as great as any other.

The rose garden at Lyndhurst is also antique, designed  by ladies a hundred years ago in concentric circles. Just outside its perimeter, late-season sage.

Hydrangea and its perfect clusters. I clearly need to find another word for perfect.

Only me here and the bees and the butterflies. No other human soul. I brush the sage with my hand and the scent wafts up. Here are September roses, flowers like no other.

Everything is perfectly still, lush, quiet. Perfectly private.

Spent rosebushes climbing a trellis have a beauty almost as exquisite as the blooms all around.

Rose hips hide themselves among the greenery.

Bees prowl the blossoms.

Hide inside, sip nectar.

Catbirds come calling. Lovely fragrances lift themselves, waft under my nose.

I wipe sweat from my brow and smell the sage I touched before. Lock the gate and leave. Just outside, some ancient spruces, one with the conjoined stems I love.

Cones litter the ground, brown on brown.

Wander, wander some more. Mary Wollstonecraft Shelley told us, The beginning is always today. Under my feet, clover. I know that if I were to hunt hard enough, go down on my knees for long enough, I’d find one with four leaves. I feel that fortunate.

Then a lucky mushroom, the only one, a lucky one.

The tiny fuzz of a magnolia after it has had its spectacular blooms. A secret you need to really look to see.

A weeping cherry.

So mature its trunk is gnarled and crusty.

Near it a young’un with clearly demarcated lenticels, the stitch-like pores that form a cherry’s instantly recognizable embroidery.

And another ancient specimen, a red pine, all burls and character.

But still offering its miniature baby seedcases.

A horse chestnut with a gaping critter hole at its base. Anybody home?

Childhood memories of collecting chestnuts on my way to school.

The Lyndhurst faux castle looms ahead.

More compelling, the little children’s elf cottage nearby.

I check the door, locked. Peer into a window.

It’s as if the room is holding its breath, waiting for a child to come in and love it.

Outside, the emerald glow of a red maple canopy.

More lindens. A hush of lindens. All my life, my heart has yearned for a thing I cannot name. So said Andre Breton. He had my number, that’s for sure.

Departing, I step across the old cobble gutter from one hundred years ago, when the estate was new. I’m sure that at its beginning the place was marvelous.

Now, in its dotage, all its trees mature, rough, tried by time and weather. A sweet birch with time-scaled bark.

Today, personal, completely private. Old, yet new.

All the more precious.

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